First of all, I would like to apologise for
my absence this last week or so, the reason is because I haven’t been feeling myself.
I have been a bit down in the dumps and that always takes a toll in my
motivation and creativity.
I think this is something we all go
through. Sometimes it just takes a little bit more effort to get out of bed,
but as Annie taught us “The sun will come out tomorrow”
My
thoughts on 2016
I have to say this was one of my worst but weirdly
rewarding year of my life.
A very close family member passed away at
the beginning of the year and I was absolutely devastated. I felt like my heart
was being crushed into a million pieces and to this day it doesn’t feel whole.
I know it will never feel whole again as a little piece of my heart died the day
she passed away.
This was also a year of new beginnings. I
started my first job and even though it felt quite scary in the beginning I
have become more independent and I’m really grateful for it.
My personal life has been a roller coaster
of emotions. I have cried like never before but I have also been incredibly
happy in some occasions. I don’t see my future as something stable and that is
something that makes me incredibly sad and anxious, but that is something I
have to deal with as we never now what tomorrow might bring.
I was thinking about including my 2017
goals in this post, but actually I never stick to them. So instead I will just
list a few things that I would like 2017 to bring me:
- Stop overthinking and overanalysing things. I always do this and it makes my anxiety levels go sky high. I´m not sure if I believe that everything is set in stone and that things happen for a reason, but I do believe that you can fight for what you want to a certain extent. In the end you don’t have complete control of any situation, so this year I want my mantra to be “Que será será”.
- Do things that make you happy, ignore what other people may think and don’t feel guilty about it. In my teens I was an absolute party animal, with time I have slowly become quite introvert and I try to escape large social gatherings. At first I felt quite bad, I felt like I was letting people down and that something was seriously wrong with me. But why do I have to be the one with the problem? Just because I don’t like doing what is “socially acceptable” and what the majority of people like to do, doesn’t mean that there is something wrong with me.
- Fight for your dreams. I first started a blog in early 2015 but it only took a few months for me to call it quits. The main reason was because I kept comparing myself to other bloggers and thinking that my work wasn’t good enough. Nothing is easy in life and there is no way a novice wannabe blogger like me can ever compare herself to professional bloggers that have been doing this for years. I later realised that I don’t have to compare myself to others, I do this because I like it, it’s a hobby, it de-stresses me and it helps me get in contact with likeminded people. Professional bloggers are so lucky to be able to earn a living by doing something so fun, but because they are so incredibly busy they miss out on the little things that the blogging world gives you; like reading every single comment, being able to comment back, seeing how amazing other people’s blogs are and discovering and learning so many new things. There is beauty in every stage of your life, you just have to try and see it.
To finish of this post I wanted to thank every single person that has decided
to visit springlilies.com I don’t
have a huge following and every single visit, every single follower fills my
heart with joy and inspires me to work harder.
Thank
you very much for your support. From the bottom of my heart I wish you all a
happy 2017!
